I swear that if I have lied here, then May Allah t'ala curse me...
And I am not a liar.
I have seen the honoured one, the Messenger of Allah (saw) in a dream three times, years ago.
The first time I saw him (saw) in a dream from a small distance and he sent his salaams to me through a third person, who brought them to me.
Months later I saw him (saw) again and this time I was ushered by another person into his presence and he (saw) came towards me, smiling with his arms outstretched to welcome me in an embrace. I could not take the auspiciousness of his presence, and the occasion, and I fled.
I did not regret running, because I believed myself to be unworthy. And with good reason.
The third time. I still could not tolerate a direct encounter. And yet when I entered the dream, we were seated on the floor together and his right shoulder was against my left shoulder and his (saw) body was facing away from me and yet his
face was half turned towards me so that I could tolerate his magnificent presence.
And our hands were raised in supplication and he (saw) bade me to ask of the Most Gracious. I asked for what I wished for, and he (saw) said Ameen.
And there the dream ended.
I will not tell what I asked for, that is for me to know.
I swear once again that if I have lied about these encounters then may Allah t'ala curse be upon me.
I am not a scholar, nor do I have pre tensions of being one.
I do not know Arabic.
And even the supplications that I make are in English.
This does not mean that I do not want to learn Arabic or the supplications in Arabic.
Sometimes I oversleep and then pray my Fajr upon waking.
I err, and I ask for forgiveness.
And I am still learning the religion, trying to be better in it... Slowly.
And I am not a Sufi, and do not think that their fervent poetry and overt love is a necessity for seeing what I have seen.
This last Umrah, that I made, a special occurrence happened to me that I will not relate here.
I am not a fervent worshippers, but I worship. I try to follow the advice of Bilal (ra), when he said that after every ablution he performs two rakah Nafl.
I am not of those who make their religion difficult, nor those self righteous types, nor even of those who fasted the ten of Dhul Hijjah.
But j will tell what I do, do.
Perhaps it may be of benefit to you.
The Messenger of ALLAH on this day, the day of Hajj, gave his farewell sermon to a multitude of people, the like not seen.
And afterwards he asked of them one simple question, and they replied and then he asked them to bear witness to it.
Down through the ages, that question remains there for all of us to respond to it.
He (saw) asked, "Have I not delivered the Message?" And they responded, Yes. And then he asked them to bear witness to it.
For a man who gave everything to us, and withheld nothing for himself, to ask of us just one thing is overwhelming. That that thing is something easy to do is outstanding.
For the past I don't know how long, I have responded to that question.
And in my dua I bear witness.
I bear witness that there is no God but Allah, and Muhammad is His Messenger.
And I bear witness that Muhammad (saw) has fulfilled the trust laid on him by ALLAH, and I have believed in ALLAH because of Muhammad, so ALLAH reward him with magnificence, for verily I would not have believed but for him.
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